Because that's the thing with NaNo: yeah, I wrote nearly 28,000 words in a month, which I never would have managed in an ordinary challenge-free month. But. In an ordinary month, I would have been much happier with the words I wrote. Don't get me wrong. I really like the story I'm telling, but I think it's not written well. I certainly do like and even love certain passages, but a lot of what I'm churning out seems utterly dispensable to me, and I'm not accustomed to that at all. NaNo pushed me to abandon my usual writing style - which is to edit as I go, making sure I like each word, each sentence, each paragraph before I move on to the next, and also to have the characters already living in my head - and I think what I gained in terms of volume of output is not nearly enough to balance what I lost in terms of feeling sure of the story and loving that I get to write.
Anyway. Enough navel-gazing. More snippets to come - I'm hoping to be very productive this weekend, as I have not a whole lot else going on. Thank you so much to everyone who's been cheering me along the way - you really have encouraged me tremendously, and I very much appreciate it.