February 24th, 2009

dean loves ben

Ben/Dean and writing and randomalia

Hi, everybody!

I'm working from home today because I did something to my back, and of course they're jackhammering in the basement, so I can barely hear myself think. Awesome.

The last Ben-and-Dean scene is going up on Sunday morning, and if I can get all my little duckies in a row, a bonus surprise either that evening or soon after. You won't want to miss the bonus surprise, as people with incredible talents have done some great work.

What else? Um, any Gilmore Girls fans on my flist? Lauren Graham is starring in Guys and Dolls on Broadway soon; she's playing Miss Adelaide (Oliver Platt is her Nathan Detroit).

I'm reading the most extraordinary book, which pretty much offers fodder for Supernatural fanfics on every other page. Did you know Lysol was marketed as a douche? Now you do! And you can never unknow it! Mwa-ha-ha!

I've got a problem, and I'm hoping you can help me. I'm trying to write my story for spn_j2_bigbang (which I have never once typed properly - it always comes out as bigband, just like storyfinders comes out as storyfingers), and I'm having a rough time with it. Without giving too much away, here's what I think the problems are.

  • First, it's not a story that I'm dying to tell (the way that most of my stories have been, particularly the Ben/Dean series and the way the stories I tend to come up with are, like "Generation"). This idea was one of those "wouldn't it be neat if someone wrote X?" kind of deals, and I wasn't necessarily thinking of myself as the proper person to write it. I do think the story is interesting, but again, I don't know if I'm the best person to put it on paper, you know?

  • Second, I don't know if the story really does have a natural life of at least 20,000 words (bigbang minimum). It was the only idea I had that could plausibly be stretched that far, but now that I'm actually writing it, it feels like a much shorter story.

  • Third, and most importantly, I feel very uncertain of myself with this story. While I have written a few plotty stories, mostly I've written character-driven pieces. This story is kind of a mishmash, and juggling the two is very difficult for me. With my character-driven pieces, I've always felt like I knew why I was adding in certain details and certain scenes, that I knew what each piece would contribute to the finished whole. I'm missing that certainty here. And with the plotty pieces, I do have a framework that says "these are the necessary pieces of background info that will help make sense of the ending" and I can write in linear fashion. But, again, here, I'm kind of coming up with things on the fly, and then having to go back and write things into parts of the story that I thought were already finished, so I'm ending up with messy patchwork rather than clean lines.


  • Man, for all the complaining I'm doing, you'd think I'd have more written than just under 3500 words, wouldn't you? Can any of you help me out, offer suggestions on how to figure out how to write this story, stuff you tried, etc.? I'd very much appreciate it.

    Thanks! I hope you're all doing well!