December 1st, 2007

the arch of the eyebrows gives it away

NaNo: looking back, looking ahead

So, NaNo is obviously over, and I came nowhere close to 50,000 words. That's totally okay, because I was really shooting for 25,000 to 30,000 (which I hit), but I also hoped I'd have the rough draft done by month's end (which I totally don't). I was asked if I was going to continue to post snippets until the story was done, and I've gotten enough "OMG you evil tease, when are you going to tell us WTF is wrong with Dean, WTF Sam did, and WTF you're doing?" [language toned down for decency, hee!] comments to think the best plan of action is to keep going until this bad boy is done. Then I can worry about whipping it into decent shape.

Because that's the thing with NaNo: yeah, I wrote nearly 28,000 words in a month, which I never would have managed in an ordinary challenge-free month. But. In an ordinary month, I would have been much happier with the words I wrote. Don't get me wrong. I really like the story I'm telling, but I think it's not written well. I certainly do like and even love certain passages, but a lot of what I'm churning out seems utterly dispensable to me, and I'm not accustomed to that at all. NaNo pushed me to abandon my usual writing style - which is to edit as I go, making sure I like each word, each sentence, each paragraph before I move on to the next, and also to have the characters already living in my head - and I think what I gained in terms of volume of output is not nearly enough to balance what I lost in terms of feeling sure of the story and loving that I get to write.

Anyway. Enough navel-gazing. More snippets to come - I'm hoping to be very productive this weekend, as I have not a whole lot else going on. Thank you so much to everyone who's been cheering me along the way - you really have encouraged me tremendously, and I very much appreciate it.