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Hi, everybody!

I'm once again in crankypants mode, though I wasn't yesterday and most likely will have snapped out of it in about an hour. I just keep seesawing between being fine and being depressed and I'd really like to stop.

So. What's been going on with me: Cleaned up my draft of my 20K fic for sherlockbigbang. Wrote three Yuletide stories (one not quite full-length) and had very good conversations with my lovely betas. Betaed four Yuletide stories, which was a lot of fun - it's always nice to get a sneak peek at some good writing. Drafted a story to be posted on January 6, Sherlock Holmes's birthday. Started writing two original stories, a To the Ends of the Earth story (Benedict Cumberbatch!), and three more Sherlock stories. Signed up for picfor1000 and talked a friend into doing the same. Started organizing things for sherlock_remix. Have been discussing more Sherlock fic with a writer I'm betaing for. Read all the Sherlock fic that's posted to comms and not as comments to a meme. Smiled at a picture of Martin Freeman as John Watson (hands in pockets, big smile!) and grinned at a .gif of Benedict Cumberbatch dork-dancing.
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I've been unemployed since (technically) the end of October and I've been sending out resumes and cover letters like crazy, and two days ago I had my first interview. No one else is even calling or emailing back to express an interest. It is mightily discouraging. The interview went well, sort of. At least, the second and third people I met seemed to like me; the first, not so much. We'll see what happens there. And the unemployment office sent me a letter demanding an interview with me tomorrow (December 23! REALLY?!?), so I'm in town for a little longer.

After that's over, I get on a train to my mom's, and then she and my brother and I go off to Spain for five days. We planned this trip just before I got laid off, so now instead of splitting the cost of it with my brother, he's paying for everything. I feel stupid for feeling guilty about that, but I can't seem to talk myself out of it. I'll be without internet access (most likely) from 12/24 - 12/30, so I'll miss most of Yuletide, not to mention the Cabin Pressure Christmas special. And I'm not getting any comment notifications from Hotmail, so I'm already feeling out of the loop.

After Spain, I'll be staying with my mom for a while to help out with some medical stuff she's going through. And then I'm flying out to New Mexico and California on tickets bought with airline miles to visit a grad school friend and then help set up my brother's sweet new pad in CA. I want to do all of these things, but I'm also aware that I won't see my apartment for over a month, and that's making me anxious.

I want to end this on a happy note, and saying that I'm waiting for the plumber to come by to fix the guest bathroom sink is not the way to do it. Hmmm. Oh! I adore my brother's new girlfriend! There!

Now tell me good things that are happening in your lives, please! Or if you need to vent like I just did, feel free.

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Oh wow, I'm looking forward to all of your wonderful-sounding fic, but I'm sorry to hear that no employer has been smart enough to snatch you up before now. :\ I hope your travels are all pleasantly distracting.

Thank you, honey. I hope I will stop moping around soon and be back at work!

Enjoy your holidays!

love the gif!

Happy travels--and I bet the job search picks up in the new year!

and can't wait to read the fic!

He's spectacular, isn't he?

That's what I keep telling myself - everyone's in holiday mode, no one has money left in the 2010 budget, etc., but I don't know if I believe it. Fingers crossed, I guess.

Thank you so much!

May the perfect job happen as soon as possible.

Good things. Umm. I'm taking two weeks off! And the twitch in my left eye from the alarming lighting in our new office building has finally gone away!

Really, I've just been reading All the Sherlock and writing drawerfic for my own devices. Except for the day I took off from that to write my Yuletide, but as soon as it was done, back on the kinkmeme I was.

You deserve Spain right now. And when you are gainfully employed again, which of course will happen REALLY SOON, you can plan something nice like Italy and treat him. ::nods::

I really hope it does!

Two weeks - what will you be doing? Staying put and lazing about or traveling somewhere new? Not that you could do much lazing with a small, fierce child to contend with.

The last few days has brought a bumper crop of good Sherlock fics, I think. And why are you not posting any of your fic? I miss reading your writing!

Ah, that's a lovely way to look at it! I've been wanting to go back to Italy! I will be able to treat him soon! Thank you so much for the kind words!

Technically, I just posted my first one. ::facepalm::

http://sherlockbbc-fic.livejournal.com/5564.html?thread=18603196#t18603196

But the ones I've been seriously working on are either too convoluted and telenovela for me to be willing to share them in public, or stalled out, like my retelling of the Gloria Scott.

See, that doesn't belong in a drawer!

And if you need a pre-beta to talk stuff over with, I'm your girl.

Congratulations on your interview! I know exactly how you feel about the soul-crushing lack of response. I was unemployed for most of 2009.

And the unemployment office sent me a letter demanding an interview with me tomorrow (December 23! REALLY?!?), so I'm in town for a little longer.

Ha-hah! I got one of those scary letters, too. So, I go into the unemployment office...

UI Rep: Are you actively looking for work?
Me: Yep.

(I hand over a list of places where I submitted my resume, and the UI Rep glances at it for less than a second.)

UI Rep: Okay. Good luck in your job search.
Me: ...
UI Rep: That's it. We just wanted to make sure. Bye!

Ugh, it's awful! At least when I was applying to grad schools, I was hearing from them! And it pisses me off because applying for jobs and interviewing for jobs require completely different skills than the actual jobs - just hire me and see what a good worker I am!

But thank you for the support of your good example - I will keep my chin up.

Eventually you WILL get something. I have faith!

Have you looked into temping, in the meantime? I have been stitching together a living out of temp jobs and horrible, horrible freelance writing jobs for most of 2010, but Spherion Staffinghas kept me employed more often than not.

I haven't, not yet, but back in the day, I had steady work first with Manpower and then through Olsten. Thank you for the recommendation!

I have faith in you too!

I'm thinking good thoughts for your job search and interviews and whatnot! And sending many hugs. Please enjoy your trip with your family -- you sound as if you really need a relaxing break. *hug*

Thank you so much! I feel like I do need a break, but that nasty little voice pipes up and says "from what?" and I get yucky all over again. But I will not let any of this spoil my trip with my mom and my brother!

The hugs are much appreciated!

you'll be out my way in Cali--what part?

Oh, really? San Diego is where he's moving, but I don't know neighborhoods well enough to be more specific.

oh, Im in Los Angeles, but if you all happen to be up this way, let me know...

I wouldn't stress too much about the job thing this month - in January you'll come back and kick ass, and people will actually be much more willing to set up interviews.

Have fun in Spain. I'm so jealous!

I think I'm the one that needs some ass-kicking, but thank you for offering encouragement instead! And sweet, sweet jealousy!

Ooh, despite being gone so long, sounds like you're going to have a fabu trip. Enjoy! Happy holidays!

We have a *huge* xmas tree this year, and i have all my gifties, and my mom and little brother and family are going to be here the day after for a visit and we *might* have a white xmas! Yay!

*twirls you*

:)

Thank you!

Aww, your Christmas sounds fantastic, and you definitely deserve it! I hope you get that snow!

I've been thinking about you! I'm sorry the job search is being such a long slog so far.

Enjoy your travels and put it out of your mind for a few weeks. (Spain, oooooh!)

All your writing projects sound fabulous. ♥

I want to say just hire me; my flist thinks I'm awesome and have that be the end of it, but noooooooo. Stupid real world.

But thank you for the kind words!

I'm so exhausted, but now I have eight days off in a row, UNHEARD of, with nothing to do except for tinker with some writings, and do a bit of knitting, and enjoy the REALLY GOOD SUMMER WEATHER. And then I go back to work for three weeks and then I get my ACTUAL holiday, we're going to the Marlborough Sounds which is absolutely the best place in the world, beaches and native forest and mountains and ocean and hardly any people. So that's all good. Also I am having adventures in cooking. I've made really good christmas mince pies and I'm trying vegetarian trifle and also shortbread. My mum is away in England for Christmas so all the cooking falls to me!

Good luck with your job-hunting, and try not to get too disconsolate about it. You will find something! BECAUSE YOU ARE AWESOME. And the fit is important, for you as well as for whoever it is that hires you - so probably best NOT to get some jobs, I think.

Have a lovely time in Spain. That's really cool, and I look forward to your photos :-)
Take care, my dear, and happy holidays!

I'm so impressed that you managed to get eight days off, given your crazy schedules for all of your jobs! I hope you laze around and think happy thoughts and write. And rest up for your actual holiday, which sounds awesome!

Cooking is really fun, as I'm discovering now that I have time to play. I've been making caramelized onions and having them with everything - bitter greens, lentils, cheese and crackers. Mmmmm.

You're absolutely right about the fit - I just wish that the place that kind of vaguely held out hope for my dream job would let me know if they really can and will hire me, or if they were just building castles in the air.

Photos will be forthcoming!

Happy holidays to you too!

I'm so exhausted, but now I have eight days off in a row, UNHEARD of, with nothing to do except for tinker with some writings, and do a bit of knitting, and enjoy the REALLY GOOD SUMMER WEATHER. And then I go back to work for three weeks and then I get my ACTUAL holiday, we're going to the Marlborough Sounds which is absolutely the best place in the world, beaches and native forest and mountains and ocean and hardly any people. So that's all good. Also I am having adventures in cooking. I've made really good christmas mince pies and I'm trying vegetarian trifle and also shortbread. My mum is away in England for Christmas so all the cooking falls to me!

Good luck with your job-hunting, and try not to get too disconsolate about it. You will find something! BECAUSE YOU ARE AWESOME. And the fit is important, for you as well as for whoever it is that hires you - so probably best NOT to get some jobs, I think.

Have a lovely time in Spain. That's really cool, and I look forward to your photos :-)
Take care, my dear, and happy holidays!

D'oh! I forgot to say - I just got your card in the mail, and it's lovely! I've never had a pet, so I hadn't considered the dangers of a feisty one around all the decorations and lights, but I'm sure your Mr. Z is plotting something. All the best to the three of you!

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